fading away

for a long while, i had been puzzled by the story of elves in "the lord of the rings". i kept wondering why elves, as immortal and powerful as they were, would disappear and leave the world to humans alone? why couldn't they simply hang around the forests and sing their beautiful songs for ever and ever?

i started to frequent a forum a few years ago. right after Sept.11. i have since been visiting the same site almost daily and written numerous posts/articles. there i have made many good friends and met some really amazing people. all in all, it is a wonderland like nothing else, a place i could dwell forever. so i thought.

one by one, however, "old" fellows stop talking and say farewell; day after day, new folks join in, fresh with excitement. the forum is striving, but with a slightly different crowd each day. slowly i've come to the realization that human beings are not capable of sustaining their feelings/interests endlessly, not even the most obessive kind in nature. sooner or later, the time will come that one has to go. i am still enjoying the forum fine; but i, too, have noticed that, chatty as i am, i do not always have something to say or have to say something....

so forever is not life, not even virtually. not just by death. life zooms in and it fades away. and those fairy elves? they wanted to leave.